Those memories hurt

1. You always give me that smile.
2. You always give whatever i had wanted and more.
3. You never disappoint me in that 9 months.
4. You never fail to make me happy.
5. You are always the best in my eyes.
   
6. You left Sg 2 months ago because of some family matters.
7. But i don't think i can forget everything easily.
8. Thank you for being there for me in that 9 months.
9. You will always be my best friend;brother;boyfriend.
10. Sorry that i did not send you in the airport.=(
    

2 things that troubles me

• My 16 years old brother who always comment on each and everything i do...which really annoyed me.But this is not the real problem that trouble me.

• I have a friend that i cared too much that makes me hates him.He is not to be blame.When i on my lappy,the first thing i check is if he is online,his status and his PM...I don't even know why am i doing this for.I care who he goes out with,where he goes,his words and i just want to know where he is and who is he with all the time.As if i'm his girlfriend,LOL!We are good friends actually...We meet each other frequently.I always hope highly for him.If you ask me if i like him,i will say no or maybe ? The answer is still unknown,all i want now is to stay in this way with him.Hahaha~
  

[MV] Sponge Band - Can't Hear You 안들려

I very confused..

Why this few days i fight with her a lot?i feel that she just cant understand me..i told her my problems because i want he to comfort me..but she also scold me..
another problem..
very lonely..
feel that o am always left out..
another problem..
school work..cant really cope with my history..
another problem..
history teacher scolded me because she assumed that i was day dreaming..even though i did not..
another problem..
i need a good friend which i can rely on..which i can talk with when i have any problem..
i am very troubled even though i dont look like i am..
i am really lonely..
i want the person sitting beside me to talk to me more,because i feel that he is the friend i am finding..

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10月17日

快乐的时刻，美好的回忆。
后面的真相却是不是每个人能想得到。
真相的现实非常的恐怖，体验过的人可能这有我一个。。。
我们的回忆，我们的17岁。。。

2003年2月10日

我以醒来，却在小船上漂来漂来去。船上有洞，水不断地流进去。让我想起那年的恶梦。。。
妈妈说我在游泳池旁边跟谊静吵架，为了一个娃娃吵起来了。我把谊静推开，把娃娃抢了。她却掉进水里了。当我要拉谊静的时候不料也掉进水里了。我们两都不会游泳，我们在水里挣扎。。。
中文件事却害了以静的气喘病。我一直以为是我的错。
以为是老天爷的报复。真相大白的时候，无法相信。。。